- Received a 2 hands tantric massage from Sergio
- She is from Poland
- She has been going to psychologist, but 1 week after the massage the psychologist came to the conclusion that she doesn't need psychologist help anymore
[Translated from Polish to English]
The 1st day she wrote:
Here few words about today 🙂
From the very morning and for the whole day I can't even look at food related with meat. Until yesterday I couldn't even think about life without eating meat, and today it makes me sick just looking at it. What's more the whole day I ate healthy (usually I don't think about what I eat, because I have a very fast lifestyle and to me food was always a problematic topic, as well as my weight, because I tried already a million ineffective diets for nothing). I am really happy about it and I wish this feeling will last as long as possible. 🙂
It was very easy to me today to focus on the tasks that I had to do, everything came to me without much problem and every time EVERYTHING succeeded! I usually have troubles concentrating, today I totally didn't have any troubles with it.
Since I woke up I feel so positive about everything, I feel everything that happens around me differently, more consciously, I never had such feeling before. I have more thoughts about the things around me, it's also something new.
I must tell you that with these problems I went to a psychologist who doesn't help so much. Since some time I am wondering whether to give up going to the psychologist, because it doesn't help.
And after yesterday's meeting with you, everything began to change. It is amazing.
At the end of the day I started to have headache, it's a different kind of pain than I know. Yesterday and today I also had diarrhea.
Usually, I can not resist a day without music, I love to listen music every moment, to think about things while listening various songs. Today my music completely didn't give me pleasure, it irritated me. And the whole time I was thinking only about the music, which I heard from you, I missed it.
I wonder if it's all just over-interpretation, or really anything extraordinary begins to happen with me. But let it last as long as possible. I will keep observing further. 🙂
I would like to know more about all of this. When I think about what happened yesterday, somewhere in the middle I feel that I am going on the right path. It's a so irrational feeling. I guess I have to start reading about tantra, meditation, etc. 🙂
The 2 day she wrote:
Today it was a little bit worse. I have menstruation, but something has changed, its not as much as usual, and there is not such a terrible pain as always. I feel that something hurts me, but in a different way than usual, and it is all bearable.
I walk all day irritated, even my family is somewhat in tension, we had a little quarrel. Even today, I cried. And in my mind there are thousands of thoughts with which I can not handle ...
From morning go behind me smells of incense, every moment I feel various scents. Although around there is nothing that could smell this way. Perhaps too much I try to see different things, since I'm always more than others sensitive to smells. But this fact makes me thing.
Today I can't stand meat even more. And still I can't listen to my music.
I'm starting to meditate. 🙂 I used to think about it very intensively, but honestly I was a little scared, because, you know, I don't know about it. Even once in college we had classes with meditation and yoga elements. Already at that time it began to pull me. But still I was afraid. After your words, I have a little more courage. 😉
I am very happy take advantage of your support! Immediately after our meeting I thought about it. First, I would like to start with small steps. Therefore, meditation! 🙂 I think in fact the massage was a great start of it all. I wonder what else awaits me in the next few days.
As for my psychologist, regardless of anyone, but only from my personal feelings I had to give up long time ago, I think I learned a lot, but at this stage I stopped to gain knowledge about my self from this form. In contrast, my going to the psychologist is still super useful because of my studies - it is the living science of how then to work (or not work) with others. Although all the time I wonder if I took a good decision to go to these studies. Time will tell. I know one thing - I fulfill in helping people and psychology gives me a big part of it. 🙂
The 3 day she wrote:
My third day:
today totally strange and bad. I had little arguments all the time, I cried again, which to me does not happen often, I felt very painfully the whole body. And to constantly bothersome thoughts circling in my head, all the time I involuntarily wondered what is the meaning of all this, why I'm doing all this.
Indeed the clothes are looser. 🙂
I began to meditate, at the beginning it's hard, thoughts fly in all directions, but this is probably obvious, I need to learn everything. I am now a bit like a small child who only learns the world.
Exactly! Incense! I'll tell you that today in the store I was holding one in my hand and I had to buy them, but I do not know why, I did not. And literally after some 10 minutes, I open your mail and read about the incense. 🙂 Tomorrow I will buy.
The 4 day she wrote:
The fourth day was calm. Altogether I did not see anything new, everything is special, as I wrote before is still going on. Well, maybe except for the fact that today there was no quarrel or cry. Although I have vast experience of sadness a total emptiness overwhelms me. I do not like this state. I do not quite know what to do then, how to defend against this sadness. I feel some relief in meditation, today was much better for me to concentrate. But then everything comes back ...
I will do the asana as soon as the menstruation will end. Thanks for the suggestion.
I do not know what else I can write. I have a melancholy mood ... again the sense of everything is escaping somewhere...
The 5 day she wrote:
ahh, I feel totally very strange, I have such a jumping mood, yesterday I had a worse mood, and today the opposite, I have a very positive attitude, I feel somewhere in myself that I gave myself a big change ... I have a feeling as if soon would meet me something amazing. and it accompanies me since the morning.
As for yesterday's sadness, it's very interesting what you write, I would never have thought that you can do this, to feel it even more, up to turn into positive emotions. I have to try that next time. This all coincides with psychology, which I learn, because it's easier for me to understand.
I have no menstruation, it is also amazing, because usually, as I said, lasted a minimum of four days, the longest 7. A three here, and it's actually a little bleeding. Only the pain at the beginning as usual. But a lot is changing, wonderful to be able to observe.
Today, it came back to me desire for intercourse, before these three days somehow couldn't even think about it. And now I feel like coming back to me all the strength. :)))
The 6 day she wrote:
Today I went alone for a walk in the park in the evening. It was lovely, quiet, almost nobody in the park. Indeed it was good to me, I felt even better than previously, perhaps for the first time in my life I felt that I am a part of all that, I am part of the world. cool 🙂
Today calm, I feel the harmony with myself. Throughout the day, I felt such a feeling coming over me everywhere love ..
Although now, when I go to sleep again begins to come to me some such anxiety, fear, I do not even know why ...
The 7 day she wrote:
Day seven. I have a tremendous inner peace. Nothing is able to get me out of balance. And today was a million such situations. And even though I know that usually I would have exploded with grief a thousand times, today I was the mainstay of peace, always to the people, I was discovering and I discover love in them, something beautiful. I wish that this state will last longer.
Today, the relations with men are a bit down. It's a strange thing to say, because suddenly, as if they all conspired, all my old objects sighs begun to write to me. Well, I have a little dilemma, because recently I promised myself that I will focus on myself and not on men, which there were a lot in my life, usually quite dark stories. And now I feel that in some way their fate touches me, I'm not immune to them as I wanted to. Here, too, I have a lot of room for reflection...
Besides it, perhaps for the first time since long time, I can say that I feel good about myself. For a very long time I struggled with my complexes, bad habits, etc. And now all this is somewhere near me. I know I'm not perfect, I'm far from what I would like to achieve, but that does not matter to me such a huge matter how long ago did. I am very happy
I am a week without meat, no sweets, no junk food. This is a huge feat for me. Especially that it comes with such ease, that to me is the most amazing, I don't do any effort, it just happens. Ahh and I love to cook. I've always liked, but I never had time. And now I can find the time somehow! 🙂 🙂
Today, again, I have such a melancholy state, while thousands of thoughts are swirling in my head ...
I had to write you what's up with me for a week, right? Frankly I already got used to writing and somehow I can not imagine, I will have to stop. It's also weird for me.
Oh, no, and one more thing: people today are looking for a contact with me, my touch, I was even surprised that I was in such a big spotlight. Despite my peaceful mood, light withdrawal. And they hugged, of course !! :))
It's probably all for now.
have beautiful dreams
The 8 day she wrote:Asia, Effects after tantric massage
In general today I was a psychologist and she noticed the difference from the beginning of the conversation with me. She was very surprised. 🙂 And I understood a lot of things about me, and we both reached the conclusion that I do not have go to her any longer.